Teenager trying to make her way in this world.: Tomorrow,

As we go to school every day, go to football games and the movies, have sleepovers. As the leaves begin to first fall off the trees, as the summer starts to turn to fall, and the weather starts to get colder. As life goes on without those who used to be there. Tomorrow marks a decade since the attacks on the World Trade Centers and Pentagon, our nation included. I was only 4 years old when 9/11 happened. I don't remember a thing from that day, but I can say I lived through it. There are 2,972 less lives today because of terrorists. 10 years ago at this very moment, those 2,972 didn't know how short their time on Earth was left. For those 2,972 people, they didn't think going to work would be so dangerous. Those 2,972 are not including the people that were injured in the attacks on 9/11. 2,972 precious lives were lost on September 11, 2001. 2,792 lives that should be here today. They were innocent people and didn't deserve to die. No one except criminals deserves to die.

Tomorrow would have been my good friend, Tyler's, 15th birthday. But Tyler is forever 13 years old. I can't believe next month will mark 2 years since the accident. It seems like just yesterday, yet it seems like forever since I saw Tyler. I miss him so much. Tyler's life was cut short in a car accident. He fought for his life for 4 hours. He tried. I know he did. As I type this, "Dancing With the Angels" came on my computer shuffle. Such a powerful song. A sign from Tyler, no doubt. Please, wear your seat belt. It could mean the difference between life and death.

In my lifetime, I've seen many people die that didn't deserve it. My grandpa fought cancer for 2 years before he passed away. No man will ever be as good as my grandpa. You couldn't have met a more caring, outgoing, christian man. He amazes me to this day. I saw Layla die. I saw her became only 18 pounds. Heard her struggles through the updates her mom posted. I saw Ellie die slowly from cancer. I heard her mom's words, "Her chest keeps heaving up and down to get air." Those words haunt me. There have been so many in between. Most recently, Ethan. My Ethan passed away only a month ago. Seems so long yet just like yesterday. I miss him more and more each day.

None of those people deserved to die. No one deserves to die unless they are horrible. Like serial killers. They seem to never die and kill people for years. It's not fair innocent people have to die. It's not fair. It's life though. I can't say life's not fair. Ellie once said, "Life is fair. Life is life. Life's not perfect." If a 7 year old with cancer can say life is fair, I can believe it with all my heart. I hold on to hope that one day, life will be fair.

I'll leave with pictures of the some many people I talked about in this post. May God bless all these families. (My grandpa is not included.)