8 months without Layla,

Layla Grace Marsh was healed of cancer forever on March 9, 2010. She was only 2 years old. Today, marks 8 months since that day. We still miss and love her more than words can say. She was such a fighter. She touched so many people's heart in her short life. She will forever be in our hearts.

We miss you much, baby girl! We love you from earth to heaven and back! Dance with the angels!<3

Layla Grace Marsh 11/26/07-3/9/10

Monday and Tuesday, November 8 and 9.

Well, yesterday I went to school. Go figure.. I missed Friday so I had to go and I'm going to miss next Tuesday to go to the hospital. I have home ec this semester and I took a baby simulator home last Monday. Well, I loved it! I wanted to do it again! So, she let me take the same baby home last night! I named her Ava Grace Turner. See for yourself,

This was Ava last Monday. I haven't uploaded the pictures from last night to my computer but as soon as I do, I'll post them. It was a fun night even though she woke up some. I don't think she cried as much as she did last time which wasn't much. I want to do it again but I'm exhausted. I don't know if I could do it on another Monday. I'm going to be tired all week now. Oh well. It was worth it!

Today, I went to school again. I dropped Ava off in the home ec room and helped my teacher get the batteries out of all the other babies. I was a little late for class but that was okay. My first period teacher wasn't even there until half the class because she was in a conference. She wasn't at school yesterday, either! I don't like her anyway so it was okay! I have gym this 3 weeks. I hate it! Today, we went outside and played. I had giving up on seeing anymore butterflies this year since it was getting cold. Well, what do you know?! Ellie sent me a butterfly in 50 degree weather! I couldn't stop starring at it. It was gliding against the ground. It was so yellow. I knew it was her as soon as I saw it. I miss her so much. I'm thinking about making a post just on her story where you can get to know her better. I will do the same with Tyler, Layla, and Trey. My beautiful angels. Gosh, life's not the same without them.

Well, all I'm doing now is reading other cancer kids' websites. These kids never seem to not amaze me. They inspire me every day. I can't wait until I can do something more when I grow up to help them. It will be a lot of work and college but it will be worth it. I'm also listening to Taylor Swift's new album. Yes, I am obsessed with this cd. It's all I have listened to for the past week! It's not even funny! I'm really tired but I'm staying up to watch 16 and Pregnant at 10. 3 more hours to stay awake. Last week, I almost feel asleep during it I was so tired. I feel more tired this week with more sleep. This time change has really messed me up! It's horrible. I get an extra hour of sleep and I still am exhausted. Well, I'm going to start on Tyler's post.

Still trying to make it in this crazy world,
Allison<3

Well, today was my cousin's baby shower. My cousin is 8 months pregnant and is expecting a baby boy! She has another little boy named Caleb Michael. He is now 4 years old. The new baby will be Chase Colton. Her due date is December 16 but he is so big the doctors think he will be ready by the end of this month. Somewhere around Thanksgiving. I hope it's the 26th. He would have the same birthday as Layla. I pray every night it will be. It will be a great sign from Layla that I could care with the rest of my life. I just hope. We were on our way and I got a sign from Trey. The night of his visitation there were a lot of birds flying around. I mean, A LOT! Today, there it was again. I looked up to heaven and thanked him. This morning, I was editing pictures of Ellie and I asked her to give me a sign since it has been a week since I've had one. Well, when we got to the baby shower I got it. My aunt is obsessed with butterflies. She has a pink butterfly on the back f her car. I saw it and knew it was from Ellie. Ellie loved butterflies and her favorite color was pink. To top that off, when we were leaving, I saw another big thing of birds. There were hundreds! I had to thank my angels a lot today! It was amazing. I played with Caleb, my cousin, and Emalee. She used to be my cousin but then my aunt divorced her grandma. Caleb's 4 and Emalee's 6 so it was fun. Emalee's really grown up for age, too. One minute she will play like a little kid, the next she's like a teenager. It's pretty funny. Now, I'm listening to Taylor Swift's new cd, Speak Now. I have listened to it and nothing else for the last 3 days. Haunted is playing right now. I'm also editing more pictures which is my new thing. I'm obsessed. I'm tired so I'll talk later.

Still trying to make it in this crazy world,
Allison<3

Introduction,

Well, this blog starts today. It's going to be kind of like my diary since I have never been able to keep a written one and I'm on the computer so much. Where to start? Well, I'll give you a few things about me.

1. My name's Allison Rae Turner.
2. I'm 13 years old. I was born May 22, 1997 at 9:58 a.m. I weighed 6 pounds and 15 ounces. I was 21 inches long.
3. I don't have any medical conditions.
4. I am very mature for my age. If you continue to read this I'm sure you will find out what I mean.
5. In the past year I have had to grow up a lot.
6. I play softball and do dance. This is my 9th year on both.
7. I have a lot of best friends. Katie is #1 and I'm sure you will hear plenty of her. Andrew's my #2. Samantha's #3. Austin's #4. And so on.
8. I want t be a pediatric oncologist (kid's cancer doctor) when I grow up. I want to move to Memphis, Tennessee and work at St. Jude's Children's Hospital. You will hear about a lot of kids probably.
9. I lost a very close friend, Tyler Michael Perrow on Ocotber 17, 2009 n a car accident. He wasn't wearing a seatbelt. He was only 13. That's the day I started growing up quickly. You will hear a lot about him.
10. I lost 2 people very special to childhood cancer. Layla Grace Marsh on March 9, 2010 at age 2 and Ellie Shoal Potvin o June 23, 2010 at age 8. Again, you will hear a lot about them.
11. I also lost Katie's nephew. Trey Brandon Williams was born 4 and a half months premature and lasted 3 days shy of 9 months before he went to heaven. A lot about him, too.
12. I'm very picky when it comes to food.
13. My favorit movie is the Last Song.
14. My favorite food is chicken tenders. I prefer the one's you get when you go on a Carnival cruise but others work too.
15. My favorite actress is Ashley Greene and my favorite actor is Channing Tatum.
16. My favorite singer is Taylor Swift. Her songs truely do explain my life.
17. Favorite band, Lifehouse. Explain my life, too. Skillet's good, too!
18. Favorite show, Pretty Little Liars.
19. The person I most admire, my mom.
20. Favorite song (for this week, lol.), Never Grow Up by Taylor Swift.

Well, that's enough for now. You'll learn more if you read other posts.

I'm just trying to make it in this crazy world,
Allison<3