Tomorrow will be Kate's last day of brain and spine radiation. I am so joyful yet, what if the cancer cells are still there? There's a possibility the first radiation treatments Kate had last April- May didn't kill all the cancer cells. That she never really was cancer free. What if the cancer cells are still there? It's a scary thought. Wednesday, she will begin proton radiation again to the 2 new tumors. I pray that the radiation will kill the cancer cells. They are also discussing the insertion of a central line. That just makes me realize even more that she will soon begin chemotherapy again. That her situation really is serious and deadly. I hate using that word. Deadly. Death. Die. All of it. I hate it.  I hate cancer. I hate radiation. I hate chemo. I hate it ALL! I have read all of Kate's journal entries and I'm scared for her. She is such an amazing child. At the tender age of 7, she is more brave than most adults. Could you go through brain surgery that paralyzes you on your right side and takes your speech? Could you regain almost all the strength back in your arm and leg? Could you even gain back a little? Could you go through 5 rounds of chemotherapy? Could you handle the side effects? Could you face the possibility that you might never have kids, never see your next birthday, or never get to go to school because you are too sick? Could you puck your guts out 20 times a day? Could you be put to sleep every day for a month for brain radiation? Could you go home and have the best time of your life for 8 months than have to go back to the hospital every, single day? Could you lay perfectly still for 30 minutes a day for a month for more brain radiation? Could you fight like Kate? Kate has had to face all these things and more. She doesn't think about all these things though. She lives each day to the fullest. Most people just watch life fly by them. They take life for granted. Then, you look at Kate. Kate is only 7 years old and has had to face things no one should have to. Especially, a child. This amazing little girl fights like heck for her LIFE. Teenagers fight with their parents. Adults fight with their spouse or boyfriend/girlfriend. Parents fight with their children. But Kate. She fights EVERY DAY for her LIFE.

Ask yourself, could you handle brain cancer at age 5 with no known cure and cruel treatments?

Kate has to EVERY DAY!