My heart has been hurting a lot lately. Tonight, I don't have words as to how I feel. I just feel like writing. Cancer is evil. Kate had a spinal tap today to see if cancer cells are in her spinal fluid. The doctors are pretty sure there is because one of the new tumors is in a ventricle. She has 2 new lesions. Her parents were hoping to start cyber knife radiotherapy to contain the new tumors, but last night said there may be a change in treatment plans. God, help this little girl and her family. Cancer sucks. I still can't believe Taylor has relapsed. It took me long enough to believe Kate relapsed. Sometimes, now, I still don't believe it. But now, Taylor, too. Taylor has a few neuroblastoma cells in her bone marrow. She will be having different tests and scans done the next few weeks. She will be going to different doctors to see treatment options. Just like Kate did. Taylor's website posted a picture of Kate asking for prayers the 11th. It says in the caption something like "Unlike Taylor, Kate's parents are having to face something no parent should." Only a week later, Taylor's parents are feeling the same as Kate's. It's crazy to think that both of these beautiful girls' families have to go through this again. It's bad enough when your child is diagnosed with cancer but when they relapse. It's a totally different story. You know how your child has reacted to everything. You've seen what they've been through already. You never want to put your child through it once, let alone twice. You know how rare their disease and how many kids survive it. After being remission, you know what it's like to have a normal life after cancer. Both Kate and Taylor have been living life to the fullest these past 8 months. Both girls have been off treatment for 8 months. Taylor was in treatment for MDS and Kate was in treatment with her original cancer. Cancer sucks and needs to end.